Saying Goodbye

Loosing a loved one is never easy. The death of a child is just incomprehensible. It is something you can never describe unless and until you have experienced it for yourself. It is a pain that reaches to the depth of your soul and just makes you feel as though you have nothing left to live for yourself. It is something I would never wish anyone to have to experience, not even my worse enemies.
As a Grandmother to this beautiful, sweet baby girl I wonder at times how are we ever going to be able to go on without her? She took a piece of my heart to Heaven with her when she went that day.  Her death was unexpected and sudden. She wasn't sick (that we are aware of). It was a tragedy and the circumstances surrounding it are still a mystery to me. I must now pick up the pieces and help our daughter to cope with the loss of her firstborn child. Her heart has shattered into a million pieces and she lives with a tremendous amount of regret and pain. If you are following this blog we ask that you continue to lift our family up in prayers. Only God can ease this kind of suffering. I think I must have shed a million tears since we got the news. I think for the time being I am all cried out. I cant think about what she must have suffered leading up to her Death. Its more than I can bear. She leaves behind two beautiful little sisters that are going to be lost without her. She was such a good big sister. I always said she would make a wonderful little mother. Always ready to help them and share with them and give them hugs and kisses. God had a special plan for our little Rose. She weighed only 3 pounds, 3 ounces when she entered this world and so it was a struggle from the get go. We always knew she was something very special and I am so thankful that God saw fit to loan her to us for as long as he did. She is in Heaven now watching over us. We feel her near. We know that shes waiting for us and one day we will see her again. We are planning a life celebration in her honor. We have chosen to wait until close to her birthday as we want to release Baloons and Butterflys. We want it to be a Happy Occasion, not filled with Sadness. I am sure that I will have many photos and memories to share with my readers. In the meantime we continue to covet your prayers and understanding as we work through our grief and adjust to life without our beautiful Princess.